I have now been back to work for nearly three weeks. The transition has been both challenging and rewarding. I enjoy my career and it has been validating to be “back in the saddle” so to speak. It has been difficult to leave my children each day. And I suspect it will only get more challenging as Eliana becomes more interactive.
I am still in awe of the precious bond I have with each of my children. Dietrick is a bright and funny ball of energy. Eliana (or Elly, as we often call her) is quiet and observant with a ready smile and coo. My time breastfeeding Elly in the morning is a quiet, special time that I treasure throughout my workday. My evenings playing with Dietrick and Eliana is usually the best part of my day. I can’t help but wonder if I’d treasure these moments so deeply if I wasn’t at work all day.
Some days I wonder how I will survive this whole working-mother-of-two gig. I miss the lack of time to myself for recharging. But, I know these years of child-rearing are fleeting. Each child is a precious gift and I am thankful for the time I have with them.